Tonight, the energy of three massive visions came together in my home. The vision of the man who designed and built the magnificent house in which I presently live; my own personal vision; and that of Harri & Ruth Kosove.
Harri & Ruth were the benefactors who created The Kosove Society at USF. This is the organization that granted me the extremely special, absolutely unique-to-USF, full academic scholarship I received just months after relinquishing my athletic scholarship. In retrospect, this time in my life so clearly demonstrates the truth of the game I’m now playing. Two, particularly life-altering miracles took place between 11/93 & 11/95: the miracle of 5-foot me somehow obtaining a full, Division-I basketball scholarship when nothing of the sort was even in my mind as possible; and, the miracle of the Kosove Society existing and of me being one of so few recipients of such an AMAZING opportunity. And arguably, the timing of the situation could be considered a 3rd miracle – learning of this scholarship (“better” than my athletic full-ride) literally weeks after making what, at the time, had been the most difficult decision of my life. There is not an iota of doubt within me about the higher purpose of ALL of these experiences. Last night’s Kosove Holiday Party, hosted at my home, made this fact absolutely undeniable to me.
Last night…everything shifted & the clarity of my vision did as it does these days…it got even more vivid and clearer. Why? Because these miracles (past & present) are the things we label as coincidences or synchronicities that happen to us and around us EVERY SINGLE DAY! And when you are able to allow yourself to open your mind to see this truth…well…you will understand my insanity. You too will want to dance and sing from the top of mountains! Yes…even if you ‘don’t dance and sing’! Or climb mountains!! I promise you!!!
And here is the ridiculous, hilarious, perfect realization I made today. It is truly time to be quiet. It is time to talk a LOT less than at any point in my life thus far – including infancy. My voice literally cannot take it as I experience being horse for the 3rd time this week. It is time to allow the creative, wild, beautiful, amazingly happy Aly to fully emerge with expressions using anything but words. This super woman who has been depriving herself of truly living and loving since age 6 is absolutely ready to fully come out of her bat cave. (And yes…I purposely mixed super heros). I am ready to dance, sing, drum, paint, live & love like I’ve never done. And of course I make this discovery 3 days before going home to Seattle!! A city that felt like the first home I’ve ever known the moment I drove into the city limits. A city that is so powerful and beautiful that it was too much for me during my first 10 months living there. I wasn’t yet ready. I was beginning to get ready when I left for FL and I KNEW that when I returned I would indeed be “there”. I AM SO THERE!!! The amount of joy in my heart as I just sit here and feel this reality just cannot be described with words. Another unmistakable reason it is time to give them a break.
A BIG break!! I will save my words – my verbosity – for my books and my personal journals I am also writing & keeping at present. I will save my teaching for my public speaking engagements that I will be delivering beginning in late Jan/early Feb. And I discovered today, as I reflected on the experiences of last night, that I have been saving my inspiring for my creative expressions. This is so very clear right now. I have been singing, dancing, and drumming like NEVER before in the past two years. And even though my consistent working out has taken a huge hit during this time (it HAD to for me to get back to myself), I’ve experienced athletic feats unlike anything before. As recent evidence, I ran for the first time in almost 10 weeks this past Tuesday and I am telling you I was like the flippin’ wind! I had just returned from seeing a beautiful friend for the first time in 12 years – a reunion where we BOTH were absolutely aware of the fact that our paths are not crossing again accidentally. The intensity of that shared realization had me so unbelievably high that as I ran 7 miles in less than 60 minutes with my heart rate well over 155 (because I’m in horrible shape) I didn’t feel like I was exerting ANY energy despite a pace that was personally considered unheard of given my lack of exercise these past 4 months.
I am about to soar in my physical & more newly, in my creative abilities with the guidance and cooperation of some of the most beautiful people I’ve ever met. You know who you are! It is clear as ever. In just months, I will be sharing the stage with so many incredible people who happen to be ridiculously talented individuals with hearts as big as they get. Get ready to play this new game, friends!! We are going to take a show on the road unlike ANYTHING out there! We are going to inspire anyone in our crowd back to their soul with our energy. It is about to become all about the music!! Hell, it has always been about the music – I just wasn’t yet ready to hear it!! I hear the music of life everywhere and it is time for me to learn how to express THIS.
Harri & Ruth, your dream and the actions you took to help enable the fruition of that dream have been a guiding angel in my life from the first day I read the application that arrived in my mail in November of 1995. Thank you both from the depths of my soul. I am doing it and your kids are all going to be connected very, very soon in the way that you dreamed. I feel your beautiful vision like never before and it is my duty to live in the light you helped keep lit during some very dark times. This is what you intended for each of us – I know it and my life will serve as the example to the others. Together, we are going to change the world so quickly people will not be able to comprehend what is taking place. And that is the point! GET OUR OF OUR HEADS AND INTO OUR HEARTS!!! (Thank you Sheryl Crow).
There are no accidents. There are no coincidences. Everything and everyone is connected for a higher purpose. My life over the course of the next 6 months will prove this. And if not, no worries at all! I finally have learned the most important lesson of this life…the ONLY person you need to prove anything to is YOURSELF!!!
Game on!
Super Noon
Dedicated to a man that was very much like an older brother to me while at USF – especially once I quit the team. Along with two other guys, the three of them were our only consistent, non-female fans at our women’s basketball games. At our big reunion a month ago, I absolutely felt that all three of them deserved to be there just as much as any of us. Today is his birthday and although I haven’t seen you in many years, my friend, the time is nearing for us to reconnect. Happy birthday!!! I will see you again very soon.
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