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Today I am dealing with the realization of the continued presence, albeit minimal, of some old, nasty belief patterns I thought were gone. As it turns out, however, this is exactly what I was meant to deal with today. I was triggered (ironically, by my own blog entry) to the energy of my old story, which is VERY negative. I hadn’t felt this particular part of my old story this strongly in almost 2 years. Of course, as I work through this, I could expect to automatically reflect on how drastically different my energy is today. The difference is so stark that even a whiff of this old energy throws me out of the zone of my new, bad-ass, positive story.
My life completely changed as a direct result of my personal choice to change many of my old beliefs. Due to Eckhart Tolle’s influence, as well as many others’, I learned that in order to really change my life, I had to change my beliefs of my old story. And I mean to REALLY change my life. When I was back home in MI I knew that was my chance. It wouldn’t be my last if I had missed it, but did I really want to miss yet another opportunity to look at my situation anew? I had to ask myself if I truly wanted to tell the new story I claimed I wanted to live. The answer, though, wasn’t what needed to change. The answer was always a resounding, ‘YES!’ ‘God…please help me change my story!’ I was begging for it. What I didn’t become aware of until my healing time in MI – until I stopped running – was the power I had within me to change it all on my own – to answer my own prayer.
Through my head first dive into the reading of approximately 35-40 spiritual books spanning the gamut of the subject I learned, among many other things, the undeniable truth of the power of our thoughts – our beliefs. Upon gaining all this new information I had to finally admit that I was banging my head against a wall as long as I maintained certain beliefs. So…I faced my beliefs head-on for the first time in my life. I was 34 1/2 years old and for the first time ceased the madness long enough to ask myself what I actually believed about EVERYTHING.
What did I believe about the world, society, money, food, music, dance, love, security, having dreams, family, friends, marriage, dating, employment, government, politics, global warming, sports, work, play, etc.? Most importantly, I had to ask what I believed about myself. At my core. Want to talk about perspective? Want to talk about change? Want to talk about facing yourself & your life like never before? This was the most incredible experience I think a person could go through and it launched all of what I am doing now.
I wasn’t exactly aware of this need to change beliefs when I finally made the decision to give myself the space to do it beginning in July 2010. I just knew I had hit another low. I had to stop being so flippin’ stubborn and admit that I needed a drastically new approach. What I discovered was that the new approach of changing beliefs resulted in new perspectives, which led to new thoughts, which led to new behaviors, which led to new outcomes. And BAM! I was living the life of my dreams and it has continued to progress as such every single day since.
Because we tend to believe that everyone’s dream life looks the same, you may or may not believe me when I say this. But I’m telling you…just because it doesn’t at all resemble your dream life doesn’t make it an untrue statement. My life has almost become the pinnacle of my “old” dream in less than 2 years. The progression will result in more observable things VERY soon but for now, what I need to communicate is that it ALL comes down to my beliefs.
If you desire change in your life, you must change your beliefs! I know this sounds terrifying but it really isn’t. All a belief is is a practiced thought. If you think the same thought over and over and over again it will become a belief. Our belief patterns determine everything else in our life! EVERY decision we make. Every action we take, every word we say can be traced back to our beliefs. My old beliefs were making me miserable but I never knew they were the culprit of my misery! I had no clue that my own mind was the cause of me not living the life of my dreams. I did the only logical thing – I began changing my beliefs – immediately!!
I changed every single negative belief I could identify I held. Any part of any belief that caused me to feel anything but positive…I changed. But as it turns out, that meant pretty much going against every belief pattern that had been ingrained in me since I came out of the womb. No small task to rewire it all in less than 2 years. It took every day of the past 24 months to work through all the emotional habits within me. My recent Seattle trip and these past two days are evidence that the habits aren’t completely broken yet. The old beliefs ran deep and they were really, really dark. You can’t flip a switch like that overnight. But I’ve stuck to it. No matter how foolish it has made me look to others. No matter how it continues to make me appear to others.
I have created a new belief system that reflects what I’ve always wanted my world to be. However, the new combination of beliefs I now claim for myself is both VERY new & VERY different than those portrayed by the mainstream world. The foundational beliefs are very different and the wiring has been altered too. The wiring is no longer centered in my brain. The brain is obviously still involved but it is no longer the hub within my body. The new organ hub is my heart – everything starts and stops with the heart. Consequently, I’ve learned how to read my emotions in a much more complete, honest, manner. The fact that these old negative emotions have been triggered simply means the belief pattern is still active. I don’t even want it present, let alone active, so I need to work through it. No habitual burying techniques. Nope. Let’s do this!
Here goes nothin’. I am going to attempt to write through an example of how I worked to change my beliefs. I am going to use this issue of economic value to demonstrate this & I have no idea how the hell it is going to end up being written. It may be similar to a viewing of “Being John Malkovich”. Ahhh…John Cusack. If I had to choose between him and George Clooney….??? Sorry…see? The journey into Alyson’s mind has already begun. Get ready!
In the next entry, (which may post as soon as tonight) we delve into my old belief patterns surrounding money, wealth, employment, finances, economics, and competition. It isn’t pretty. It isn’t positive. It isn’t Alyson living in the light. I am still a bit surprised that this is what clarity hit me this morning but it does make perfect sense. Probably not perfect sense to you, for you haven’t yet been allowed VIP access to my mind. If you had, however, already been granted such access, you would know that this approach does indeed make perfect sense.
This is either going to be terribly boring, incredibly fascinating, or completely confusing. Chances are good that it will be some combination of the three.
To be continued…again…very soon
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