In these past 3 years, as I’ve transitioned from my old story into my new story, I have a completely new understanding of boundaries. Most notably, I have learned how necessary these are in order to first take care of myself emotionally – something that is BRAND new in my life at 37 years old. Drawing these lines for the first time has resulted in the most heart-wrenching experiences of my life, thus far. I believe this is due to finally understanding that I cannot love somebody more than they love themselves. I cannot “fix” anyone else’s life – no matter who they are or how much I may want to do so. But when you are a child of divorce x2 and you have spent the majority of your life witnessing the struggle of your parents…you don’t know any differently until your own life causes you to stop & analyze. I couldn’t see or comprehend ANY of this until I took care of the ONLY person I can completely take of in this world – myself.
(Recorded on 7/29/13)