This is the first time I’ve ever consciously taped myself singing. This recording, made last week, is completely unprofessional. I did a single take, as you will notice by the two, very clear lyrical mistakes I make. I used only my little hand-held tape recorder with the song playing through my speaker system in the background. Basically, my own little karaoke set-up.
It’s only been in the past two months that I’ve really begun to see what musical capabilities I possess. Right now I know that I LOVE to sing this song. It was even better when all the lyrics rang more true than they do today. I couldn’t have written a better theme song for my life when I finally came to my breaking point, 3 years ago.
Music has changed my world. I say to everyone, just sing! Let yourself sing! It isn’t that hard…listen here to me doing it. One year ago I never in my wildest dreams could have possibly guessed that it would EVER happen that I would be doing something like this! I don’t care how cheesy this appears. I don’t care how good or bad I sound. I am sharing because I’ve come alive through singing & dancing! I can’t NOT do it! And if I can do this, with not a single singing lesson EVER, than so can YOU!!!
Turn off the TV and start listening to music again. And just sing!
“Way Back Into Love” – Alyson’s life – July, 2010
Contributing Factors to Song Selection:
1) Drew Barrymore is bad ass!
2) I find Hugh Grant to be completely adorable. He stars in MANY of my favorite romantic comedies, including the film from which this song comes, Music & Lyrics.
3) The lyrics couldn’t be more perfect (both the male AND female portions) to describe where my life was in July, 2010 when I finally decided to change everything. And yes…I sing both parts because all of it applied and who the hell else was going to sing with me?!
4) It happens to be a song that has ranges I am able to “sing”.
5) I never tire of singing it! And I can’t imagine how beautiful the experience will be to someday sing with a partner. I envision that aspect, in particular, when I sing it now, rather than focusing on the lyrics as I did in the past. In this manner, I believe I am helping to create that reality of my future. And even if it never happens, my mind doesn’t know the difference. I sing it as if I’m on stage in front of millions. In “reality”, I’m just in my living room. It is the most freeing thing ever to let go & sing. Sing as if both no one & everyone can hear you I’m not at all embarrassed to show you how easy it is. And what I’m hoping to prove is that with practice AND the intense desire, I will get better. If I continue to want to sing as much as I want to sing now, there is no doubt my voice is only going to get better. I’m my own experiment.
This is dedicated to Jeff, Jon, Rob, Norinda, & the woman sitting next to me on the last day of the Krishna Das retreat weekend this past March in Orlando. These are five people who all, in very minor ways, indicated that I wasn’t too horrible with my singing. They gave me just enough validation to allow me to push through any fears I may have had lingering from my old story preventing me from doing this extremely freeing thing. Thank you to all of you. Singing moves me unlike anything from my previous life and I think there may be talent to allow to come through. But I’ve never known anything scarier thus far in my life than to put my thoughts, and now, my voice out into the public – wide open for opinion & judgment. When you release the fear and just focus on what you are desiring, the sense of freedom is unlike anything I can describe with words. This inspiring just one person to rock out in their bedroom tonight & have a similar experience far outweighs any potential embarrassment. Plus…I get to control whether or not I am embarrassed and I choose to not be so.
I know I’ve never been a singer. My brothers are the musicians; the artists. I was the student; the athlete. That was my story. Well, I want my story to expand. I want to be the athlete, the academic AND the artist! And If I am going to sing, I need to quickly move beyond the fear of everyone in my life potentially hearing it. Now…tonight…I am doing just that. With this – opening myself up to be completely vulnerable creatively by posting the first thing I’ve ever sang – I am free. Final test passed. It’s time to discover the artist within me screaming to get out. It’s time to sing and dance and to engage with life like never before. It is time for me to live!
Podcast: Play in new window | Download
Designed by Elegant Themes | Powered by Wordpress